lost to the shocking truth?
this is how reality and curiousity kills.

you had a bad start,
they make you believe
there wasn't one and you'll win.

you started to trust your position
and planned a winning routine.

yes, just when decisions are made
to win.
the tide of the battlefield changes.

and there goes your perfect plans,
ruined by the changing tide.

boom, down you go.
and you asked

why to questions
that bothers you

regardless
how many times you understood
over and over again.

you can ask over and over again,
but answers given are never able
to satisfy your "want to know".

that's it, you lost
under shame and disappointment,

checkmated